Tag: Identity

Learning to Listen to Who I Am

For the greater part of 46 years, I’ve not listened to what my body was trying to tell me.

Actually, who am I trying to kid. What I did was more than neglect, it was abuse.

Not only did I ignore my body, I told it what I wanted it to do and how. I reminded it constantly how disappointed I was with it. And I pushed it beyond what it could possibly do.

I had my first of four babies, when I was 27.

From the moment of conception, my body has never been the same. The first signs of pregnancy to me, were tender breast tissue. Oh my gosh, I was the last of my girlfriend’s to have babies, and NO ONE told me about this!

Before I became pregnant I never used to sweat. Since then, I have not stopped.

Some things never went back to how it was before I became pregnant. Even when I tried my hardest to make it so, it never did.

It couldn’t. Not only was I not that person anymore; that wasn’t my body anymore.

It doesn’t have to be a tragedy. I love being a mom. I would never trade me in for the person I was before if it meant giving up my children.

But instead of constantly grieving for that body. I need to start accepting and enjoying the one I have now, more.

This is my new reality and I need to start living that way…

until it changes again.

Who I Am, is Much Bigger Than Me

Someone recently asked me, how I did it? How can I be so involved? How can I have a job and a family and still do more?

Well…

I was once told serving Christ; being a Christian was a full time job. Well, it’s actually more than that.

I have a full time job. I’m an interpreter, and it’s the best job ever!

I meet new and familiar people, everyday.

I get the honor of being apart of someone’s health care team.

For most of what I interpret for, it’s to share information that will improve the quality of someone’s life.

THAT’S PRETTY AWESOME!

But it’s only a small part, a very small part, of who I am.

I’m a wife and mom.

This is a bit bigger than a full time job.

Even sometimes when I’m doing my full time job, I am called away to be a wife or mom.

I’m always on duty. During the day, and in the middle of the night.

And it’s great!

I get to serve my husband so he doesn’t have to worry if his house is in order, or if his children are safe.

And I get to raise my children in a way that they may one day become the men and woman that God intends for them to be, to do the things he intends them to do.

SUCH HONORS!

Being a wife and a mom is much bigger than my full time job, but it’s still just a part.

Being a Christian; being a follower of Christ, THAT’S SO MUCH MORE!

Take my full time job away.
Take my husband.
Take my children….and what am I?

I’m still a Christian.

I’m still a follower of Christ.

Would the remainder of my life still look like it?

My identity is in Christ.
Not in being an interpreter.
Not in being a wife.
Not in being a mom.

Being a Christian is EVEN BIGGER than my much bigger than full time job, of being a wife and a mom.

It’s who I am. All of me. First and foremost!

So does my life reflect that?

I hope so.