I got a special treat tonight.
My daughter asked if she could borrow my phone to call her brother, Tunes. Not really believing he would answer the phone, I gave it to her anyway.
He came over and had dinner. We talked about his life and work. We talked about his plans for his future and his struggles.
Somehow we turned to our phones and started sharing funny videos and amusing posts from Facebook.
As the night grew later, each one of the kids took their showers and headed off to bed. Mike joined them.
And then there was just the two of us.
For the next two hours he shared with me videos he had found, or posted online; all of which were centered on how corrupt the United States was.
From its education system, to the pharmaceutical companies, to its politicians in office, to the banking industry, America was doomed.
His light demeanor turned dark. He plans on one day, moving to another country.
He doesn’t know which one, but any of them, is better than this one.
Knowing I was about to start something he doesn’t like to talk about, I took a deep breath and pondered if this was the right time. If it was worth jeopardizing the small precious time I got to spend with him.
I started with…
“I know you don’t want to hear it, but…
“Everything, everything you just showed me, everything you just told me about, you can find in Revelation.
“You are not telling me anything I don’t already know. There are dark, dark times coming.
“Christians study Revelation and watch for the signs and feel the need to share it with everyone they know, just like you are doing.
“It’s not new. The New Testament says the end of the world will come like labor pains. Fathers will turn against sons, and daughters against mother. (Matthew 24:3-51)
“I wonder though, if you can spend this much time, researching how dark this world is, why can’t you spend as much time investigating what I’ve been telling you about Jesus, to see if it is true?
“Start with the Bible. There is plenty of scientific proof that the Bible is for real.
“There are archeological evidence that back it up.
“There are sources outside of Christianity, that provided historical evidence that support the validity of what it says.
“There are people who have done more than simply thrown their hands up in the air and said, ‘Well I don’t believe it’, and have actually done their research and set out to prove Christianity as a hoax, and have converted because of what they have found.
“If it is so important for you to educate others on the demise of this country, why can’t you spend just a little bit of time researching what I have been telling you?
“There is nothing you can do about it. It does not matter which country you try to run to. The whole world is coming to an end.
“So, you can watch it. You can study it. You can get mad and outraged about it. You can go out and proclaim it to everyone you know about it.
“Or you can look to God, someone who has overcome it.
“You say you don’t understand. You don’t know how there could be a God, but I will tell you His brain is so much bigger than ours. He is supernatural, and just like trying to explain how a car works to an infant, it is impossible for us to understand it in our puny little brains. (John 3:12)
“So he shrunk himself down in the form of Jesus so that he might dumb it down it for us.
“Now I don’t claim to understand it all, but I know he gave us the Bible, which has been evidentially proven as true, and in it says the way to the Father, is through his Son. (John 14:6)
“He sent his son, so that we may spend eternity with him. He gave us a way out of this sick, dark and destructive world. (John 3:16)
“And yes, it sucks living here, especially if you see what is coming; but life here is only temporary. We are only here for a short time.” (James 4:14)
I rolled my ball of yarn out on the kitchen table and I told him to imagine that it didn’t start here and stop there, but actually went on infinitely in that direction and eternity in the other.
I then placed my index finger on one spot of the yarn.
“This is were we are at. Your birth started on this side of my nail and your life here on earth will end here on the other side of it. Everything you experience here is but a breath, and then you live in eternity. (Psalm 144:4)
“So my question to you, is what are you going to do with the education, gifts and skill sets you have, during this short amount of time you have?
“What legacy do you intend to leave?
“The legacy I want to leave to my children, and my grand children and my grand children’s children, is that I loved.
I loved everyone.
I made sleeping mats and hats for the people who live on the street. Probably some of them deserved to live on the street, but I love them anyway.
“I love the needy as well as those who are mean.
“And even though I have a child who doesn’t believe what I believe; I want them to know, as well as you, that I will still listen to you, I will still be there for you, I will still support you, because I will always still love you.
“I want to impact the world that way.
“I want every person I come in contact with, to be better for it.
“But not because of me, but because of Jesus.
“Because he took a single mom with four kids who had nothing and made her something.
“I may not be rich with money, but I am rich with love.
“I have more friends who are family now than I ever did my whole childhood.
“And I want those in my small world to know Him, and what he has done for me. He has transformed me.
“I am fully aware, without being ‘fully’ aware, that life sucks and bad things happen. But my trust is in the one who has overcome this world.
“Why are you so concerned about what is going to happen right here, when you have eternity to worry about?
“Which eternity will you live?
“Because there is a Hell and it’s not under ground. It’s here.” And I let my finger run forward on the yarn.
“And it is here.” I pointed to my finger sitting on the yarn.
“It is full of pain and regret, and anger and despair.
“Or will you spend eternity with our Father?
“I don’t know if I will be spending my eternity in heaven with him, or I will be spending it here on earth once Jesus returns and brings the New Jerusalem, but I will be spending it with him in one of these two places.”
“Mom.” He showed me his phone and it was nearly 11 pm. “It’s time for me to go home.”
“No. You are home, but I will drive you to where you are living.”
My time to talk was over.
As I got back home, and set my head on my pillow after changing for the night, I texted him, “Love you. Thank you for coming over tonight. You’ve been missed. :)”
He responded, “At least know you raised a son with the same beliefs as you.”
“Look it up. Find the proof you need. Investigate. You are not a dumb kid. You are an educated man. Research and then make your own conclusion. Not one that your mom has given you.”