A Mother’s Prayer: 5 of 30

Dear Father,

Please help us see the good in all of this. It feels so like nothing is going on, but I know that’s not true. This silence is just so loud. We want to know what he’s struggling with. We want to help, but know we can’t. Distance is just so hard.

Trusting you are working within him, is so so hard. What you have done to our oldest, is such a miracle. We want nothing less for this child, as well. 

We love him.



A Mother’s Prayer: 4 of 30

Dear Father,

Break through the noise in our son’s head. Let him hear your wisdom. Please muddle up any messages that don’t come from you. Be his clarity.

Please save him from himself. Protect him as he matures from any real physical harm, but wreck him emotionally so that he may come to his senses.

This is so hard, as his parents, watching him struggle and shutting us out. If there is anything we have done or could have done to help him through this, please convict us to make these changes within ourselves now. Show us how we can best help him.

We love him.


Peacemakers: Ruth 2:10-4:22

Ruth 2:10-4:22

Attitude, gratefulness and respect will get you far. (2:11-14)

This way she can have a son to carry on the family name of her dead husband and to inherit the family property here in his hometown. – 4:10 (If Boaz married Ruth to carry on the family name of her dead husband, why is Boaz listed in the heritage of Jesus, but not her dead husband?)

Sold My Soul and Taking it Back!

Today I have learned the average American earns about two million dollars over their lifetime. TWO MILLION DOLLARS! Where is it? I am practically living paycheck to paycheck. 

I have not been good or faithful. 

I am ashamed of how much debt Mike and I have accrued. I am ashamed we have let things become our god and debt in the form of monthly payments, lords over us. We have become slaves to money, to banks, to creditors, to things of this world. 

For the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil. And some people, craving money, have wandered from the true faith and pierced themselves with many sorrows. – 1 Timothy 6:10


I have been convicted to break free from the lie that everyone will have to owe something to someone, that debt is normal, acceptable and ok, and we can never get away with paying off school loans and a mortgage.

Our income is a gift from God, intended for others, to do his good works, not for just ourselves. I would look down on people who had lots of money and bought expensive things. I JUDGE THEM FOR BEING SELFISH AND COULDN’T POSSIBLY A BE FOLLOWER OF CHRIST! 

But look at me. I’m worse! God blessed me and I became a slave to it! And what’s worse, I sold my soul to it. I wasn’t forced. I made the wrong choice.

We can’t be good or faithful servants if we are not able to share the gifts God gave to us to share. I am disgusted with myself when I think of the amount of debt that keeps us from doing God’s plan. I feel we’ve let him down and he expected more from us. 

I am grateful for these scales that have fallen from my eyes and learning the truth. We still have time to fix this. I am angry at how easily I let myself wander from God’s path, but no more. The chains are broken TONIGHT! God will provide or he won’t, but never again will we buy something we don’t have the cash to do so. I’m taking my soul back and am placing it back into the hands of my Savior.

Dear Heavenly Father,

Forgive me for my errors. I can’t say enough how sorry I am. I was so so wrong to believe because I had no money at the end of the month, I was poor. You have given me more riches than I deserve. I ask that you be with Mike and I as we climb our way out of this hole we’ve dug, and restore what we’ve mismanaged. Thank you God. THANK YOU for caring enough for us to show us how much we need you.

Your extremely undeserving and most grateful daughter.

A Mother’s Prayer: 3 of 30

Dear Heavenly Father,

Not a day goes by that we don’t think or talk about him. We don’t know if he realizes how much of a hole this family has without him. We are not complete. We look forward to a day when we can be together again.

Until that day, Lord, please work within him. Help him get this figured out. Please help him distinguish what is true within all the lies that has boggled his mind. Help him separate all that out.

We ask that you place a shield around him to protect him from what is not from you. That he might be guarded away from influences that could take him further away from us while he’s in this vulnerable state. 

But ultimately we know you know what is best for him. So we pray your teachings will pierce this stronghold he has placed within himself. If something is to get through, let it be you.

We love him.


Peacemakers: Ruth 1:1-2:9

Ruth 1:1-2:9

Blessings are an act of peace. (1:6)

Things are far more better for me than for you, because the Lord himself has raised his fist against me.” – Ruth 1:13 

“Don’t call me Naomi, ” she told them. “Call me Mara, because the Almighty has made my life very bitter. I went away full, but the Lord has brought me back empty. Why call me Naomi? The Lord has afflicted[d] me; the Almighty has brought misfortune upon me.” – Ruth 1:20-21 

(Not everything is as they appear.)

But Ruth replied, “Don’t ask me to leave you and turn back. Wherever you go, I will go; wherever you live, I will live. Your people will be my people, and your God will be my God. Wherever you die, I will die, and there I will be buried. May the Lord punish me severely if I allow anything but death to separate us!” – Ruth 1:16-17 (Loyalty)


A Mother’s Prayer: 2 of 30

Dear Father,

Please walk with our son. Teach him the path he must go to break free from what holds him back from being the young man you designed him to be.

Protect his heart as you do it. May it not turn cold or hard. Help him feel love from those who want to love him.

We love him.