Day 19 of 30: A Mother’s Prayer

Father,

I’m proud of him,  God. Could this really have been a blessing?

As far as I know, he’s making wise choices. He’s getting to work. He’s keeping his nose clean. He’s trying to keep busy. He’s being considerate and respectful of the family who has taken him in.

I got a call today, wanting to make sure I was aware how well he’s doing. He’s stepping up. He’s being a man. I’m so proud of him.

LORD, THANK YOU!

Lord, thank you for your faithfulness. Thank you for keeping your eye on him. Thank you for setting up a place for him to land; opportunities for him to man up, to prove himself, to grow.

Please continue to work on his self-esteem. Build him up, but keep him humble.

I want for him, what you want. I’m trying so hard to stay out of your way. But please know, I miss him so much!

I long for the day when he can come home. Not because he’s able to abide by our standards, but because he wants to.

However, if all I get is a young man who is responsible, dependable, independent, and capable of living life out on his own separate from his momma, then I’m ok with that too.

Just as long as our relationship continues to grow and flourish; please be in the middle of all that.

These days have been the hardest and scariest of my life. Thank you for carrying me through them.

Lord, I know these days are not over. I know there are more to come. I know he is still human and a young one at that. He’s going to continue to screw up before he gets it right. I’ll need you to hold my hand, when those days come.

But when I see how your light has begun to shine in the distance, I can’t help but have hope.

Abba, Father, thank you for that.

With a glowing heart, amen.

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