Wanted so desperately to write something yesterday. Some kind of words of wisdom. Something to sound really smart. Something profound.
You know what I got? Nothing. Well maybe not nothing, I got a headache. But other than that, I got nothing.
I kinda had an eventful day. Shared it with God. Was hoping to be inspired. Yeah, nothing.
Maybe the lesson is in the silence. I mean it has to be right? Sometimes I like to just sit.
You know who’s really hard to sit with? My daughter.
I am telling you, this child can spin. She never stops. Ever. She’s the only extrovert in a house full of introverts.
There are days were I long for her to hush, to slow down. I mean, she moves so quickly, she has a vacuum that follows her sucking everything up in her path.
Maybe yesterday I had a vacuum and God was just letting me spin. There was no need for him to get sucked up into my craziness.
Maybe my deal wasn’t such a big deal and I needed to figure that out for myself.
Or maybe His wisdom comes in His time. I’m pretty sure it was the combination of both. His timing is prefect and we often need to be still.
Still, to become aware of his presence. Still, to hear his whispers.
I sometimes try to whisper in my noisy home, when everyone is trying to be heard. Kids get quiet. Some even tell the others to stop so they can hear what I’m saying. I highly doubt God tries to yell above the crowd.
I do find peace when I’m still, with God. He has a way of turning the world off. Of quieting the voices in my head. Bringing clarity to what is really going on.
It’s actually my favorite place to be. I am able to stop being mom, stop being a wife and especially stop being the ex-wife. I can be the daughter of the King. And you know, daughters of kings, live and act differently than the rest of us.
They are not bothered by much. Their daddy’s handle the drama. The only drama they handle, is the drama they bring.
Sometimes I need to sit with my Father and sort out all the drama. What’s mine that I’m bringing and what’s His to handle.
Yesterday could definitely qualify as a drama day. And I did need the day to stop and sort out what I was bringing to the table and how to handle what I wasn’t.
Huh…lookie there; perfect timing.
The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord. – Lamentations 3:25-26
Jesus answered him, “What I am doing you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.” – John 13:7