Hi, as someone who has a large family, I completely understand the challenges of being intentional about following Christ and growing one’s faith. It competes with so many other priorities in life, like family, work, and fun.
These are all completely legitimate challenges. Coupled with one’s feelings of insecurities and fear, it is a great scheme satan has used to rob us of our faith, and to step out and be the children of God we were designed to be.
I am married to my amazing husband of 7 years. We have six kids between the two of us, ages 20, 17, 16, 14, 12 and 12, five boys and one girl. Many of our kids are learning to live, cope and succeed with a mental health issue such as ADHD, OCD, anxiety and Pyrrole Disorder. People ask me, with so much going on, if I drink. I don’t, but I do pray…a lot.
For years I felt I was missing the Mommy Gene. You know that gene, the one that causes the mommies to go gaga over their precious little bundle of joy by dancing, singing and making sugar cookies. Yuck. “Yay! We have a huge mess in the kitchen that I will have to clean up, but we had so much fun!”
Yeah, I didn’t get it. I always felt something was wrong with me. And even though I enjoy my kids immensely, it wasn’t always the case.
I was a single mom of four little ones for quite awhile, and then blending a large family was just as rough. I changed diapers for eight years. I had to drop four kids off at three different location every morning for at least three years. Heck, we still don’t have kids sleeping through the whole night!
But I have come to realize that of all the mommies in all the world, God determined I was the only one who could raise these kids the way he wanted them to be raised, so that they may become the awesome individuals that he has planned for them to be.
What an honor and a gift. Wow! I take that job pretty seriously. Like so seriously, that I am in constant prayer with Him to guide me, because I often feel I’m messing it up.
So now I spend so much time looking to God’s Word for direction in parenting and in life in general. It’s really important to me not to screw this up. I look to Jesus daily. I’m always studying Him so I can try to model Him to my kids. I do a lousy job, but I figure with my faith and His Grace, they will probably turn out just fine.
So I ask God to use me. I want to do His Will. When left up to me, I have screwed it up every time. There is great comfort in knowing I am looked after by an all powerful God and Father who thinks I’m His favorite, even if I don’t understand it.
This is not just a parenting blog! I write about all aspects of my life. Some pretty ugly ones too. I write a lot about my fear and how I overcome it by running towards it, instead of from it. I want to offer hope that you are not alone. And shows, we will not only overcome this thing called life, but be mightily used by God. Even when we don’t realize it.
We can do this by growing our faith that exceeds understanding.
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I was born in Streator, Il, but raised in Phoenix, AZ. I currently reside in Peoria, AZ with my awesome husband,
six five kids (one is out on his own), two dogs, two one turtle, and a tank with probably three one fish in it we donated the fish to a fish shop and got rid of the tank.
After high school I attended a couple of community colleges; earned a couple of two year degrees and it only took me 19 years to finally finish my four year degree in Christian Studies. In all honesty, I took time off and had a family somewhere in the middle of all that.
Aside from writing, I am a certified, licensed, American Sign Language Interpreter who has been working for the past 15 years at the same amazing agency.
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